My body image concerns started at a young age when I struggled with acne, but my lack of confidence began way before this. I remember a friend of mine in grade school making some off-handed comment about a generic Yankees baseball cap I was wearing and I felt self-conscious for months. I felt the same […]
Internal Bleeding
I bleed from the inside My organs fill up and choke, suffocated by blood, starving for oxygen. Now it threatens to overtake my mind. Each vessel leaks its own toxic mix of blood and bile. When you bleed from the inside you bleed alone. There is no bandage to help stop the bleeding I try […]
Grief, Fear, Anger, Resentment, Depression, BDD – Is There Something Good in it?
What Appears to be a Problem is not Always a Problem. It is an invitation to explore new positive possibilities. What seems impossible is not entirely impossible. It is challenging you to look at the situation from a different perspective. The obstacles that block you are also doing you a favor. They are guiding you to […]
10 Months After my Facial Scar – Falling Back Into Old BDD Habits
Sometimes I just can’t believe it happened: The scar, the injury, the entire incident. It doesn’t seem fair, but then again, life often isn’t. And we just have to accept these things as they are. ON THE ROAD I am away from home, on the road, in a hotel room. Alone with mirrors and overhead lights. I […]
The Fog is Lifting – Turning Scars into Stars
I have learned not to trust my day-to-day feelings. Over the years they have been known to deceive me. At times the feeling of joy and a lack of worry pervade. At other times I am left to drown in the throes of deep depression. I don’t always know what tomorrow will bring. Standing up instead of […]