Strong, Confident, unbreakable Weak, broken, fragile somewhere in between this is the reality of living with BDD life exists as a series of adjectives. today I feel strong, confident, unique tomorrow who knows so I live for today, I give up the notion that I have to be perfect to be of value I accept […]
SHAME
Shame is the intensely painful feeling or experience of believing that we are flawed and therefore unworthy of love and belonging. I look at myself and I feel shame I look at others and I feel shame I breathe and I feel shame I exist and this is such a fucking shame. So shame on […]
Internal Bleeding
I bleed from the inside My organs fill up and choke, suffocated by blood, starving for oxygen. Now it threatens to overtake my mind. Each vessel leaks its own toxic mix of blood and bile. When you bleed from the inside you bleed alone. There is no bandage to help stop the bleeding I try […]
Coming Back for More
No matter what I do it is there, it is always there, it is prodding me, poking me, tormenting me. “It” whatever “it” is has stolen my life. And you don’t deserve to have it. Who are you anyway and where did you come from? I am not sure I was ever whole, but how […]
To Live
Somewhere down there deep inside of me there is this small little man. And he is hurting, and I can’t get to him. He is in pain and I cannot comfort him. He needs to be told everything is going to be OK, but he is crying. He feels more than I do, so I […]