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SHAME

By Stephen

Shame is the intensely painful feeling or experience of believing that we are flawed and therefore unworthy of love and belonging.

I look at myself and I feel shame

I look at others and I feel shame

I breathe and I feel shame

I exist and this is such a fucking shame.

So shame on me, shame, shame shame.

It’s all the same, shame and all the pain and the disgust I feel, I feel so vain, so focused on my shame, when no one is to blame but the man within the frame.

Yes, indeed I am flawed and therefore unworthy of your love.

I do not belong

I am so alone

I am so ashamed

And in this shame I shall be buried, what a wasted fucking life.

Shame

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About Stephen

My name is Stephen and I was officially diagnosed with BDD in October of 2012. I have lived with it my whole life. This blog is my story, my shame, and my path to recovery. It starts on Day 1 of my new life. To live, and love myself, to teach others how to do the same, and learn more about what it means to live with body dysmorphic disorder. Here are some resources that I use...