BDD SUCKS

Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder - My Story of Living With BDD

"It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see."
~ Henry David Thoreau

Contact | About | Resources Archives

This is the Story of My Life Living With Body Dysmorphic Disorder

  • Facebook
  • Twitter

Powered by Genesis

The Best Books for Treating and Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder

November 3, 2012 By Stephen

Here is my list of the best books on the subject of Body Dysmorphic Disorder.  There is other literature which focuses more on the topic of body image that I will discuss in a later post.

My Favorites

[easyazon_link asin=”0195379403″ locale=”US” new_window=”default” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ add_to_cart=”no” cloaking=”default” localization=”default” nofollow=”default” popups=”default”]Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder[/easyazon_link]by Katherine Phillips, M.D.

[easyazon_image add_to_cart=”no” align=”left” asin=”0195379403″ cloaking=”default” height=”160″ localization=”default” locale=”US” nofollow=”default” new_window=”default” src=”http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/41EPnEUr9pL._SL160_.jpg” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ width=”112″]A Wonderful, concise and essential book to understand the diagnosis and treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder. It is a fairly short and easy read, that is full of top-notch information!Material is complete and presented in an organized and useful way. The understanding enabled for both client and therapist is one of the main traits of this book. And the author is obviously committed to the betterment/healing of her clients
[easyazon_link asin=”1572307307″ locale=”US” new_window=”default” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ add_to_cart=”no” cloaking=”default” localization=”default” nofollow=”default” popups=”default”]Feeling Good about the Way You Look: A Program for Overcoming Body Image Problems[/easyazon_link] by Sabine Wilhelm, Ph.D.

[easyazon_image add_to_cart=”no” align=”left” asin=”1572307307″ cloaking=”default” height=”160″ localization=”default” locale=”US” nofollow=”default” new_window=”default” src=”http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51FiFo3cq0L._SL160_.jpg” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ width=”107″]This is a wonderful book!  Written by the Director of the MGH OCD and Related Disorders Program, and Founder of the Body Dysmorphic Disorder Clinic, this book offers individuals suffering from Body Dysmorphic Disorder with critical tools to understand BDD and to bring their disorder under control.

The step by step approach detailed in the book is exactly what is needed for patients and clinicians alike. I have enthusiastically been recommending it to all of my clients who have BDD, and to colleagues interested in learning more about it. This book offers new hope to the millions of people worldwide who live with this troubling, but treatable disorder.

[easyazon_link asin=”1572242930″ locale=”US” new_window=”default” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ add_to_cart=”no” cloaking=”default” localization=”default” nofollow=”default” popups=”default”]The BDD Workbook: Overcome Body Dysmorphic Disorder and End Body Image Obsessions[/easyazon_link] by James Claiborn, Ph.D. and Cherry Pedrick, R.N.

[easyazon_image add_to_cart=”no” align=”left” asin=”1572242930″ cloaking=”default” height=”160″ localization=”default” locale=”US” nofollow=”default” new_window=”default” src=”http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/417CIWn0qSL._SL160_.jpg” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ width=”124″]This workbook really delves into the thought processes of a person who suffers from this exhausting illness. The worksheets and exercises really cause you to challenge the beliefs which have been engrained in your memory for decades.I would highly recommend this workbook for anyone who is self directed and able to work through the exercises on their own.
[easyazon_link asin=”0195167198″ locale=”US” new_window=”default” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ add_to_cart=”no” cloaking=”default” localization=”default” nofollow=”default” popups=”default”]The Broken Mirror: Understanding and Treating Body Dysmorphic Disorder[/easyazon_link] by Katherine Phillips, M.D.

[easyazon_image add_to_cart=”no” align=”left” asin=”0195167198″ cloaking=”default” height=”160″ localization=”default” locale=”US” nofollow=”default” new_window=”default” src=”http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/417CpMIe55L._SL160_.jpg” tag=”4hourlife00-20″ width=”100″]KatherinePhillips other book “Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder” is a more concise and consolidated read, it is also newer.But, if you want a more in-depth look into BDD and it’s treatment by the worlds leading expert, then “The Broken Mirror” is a must read. Probably still considered the gold standard.

Filed Under: Literature, Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) Tagged With: BDD, Body, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Books, Image, Katherine Phillips, Literature, Reading, The Best of, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

Augmenting a Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor for the Treatment of BDD

November 2, 2012 By Stephen

Follow this link for a list of Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors used for the treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

Augmenting a SSRI for the Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder

The only data on the effectiveness of SRI augmentation in BDD comes from the clinical practice of Katharine A Phillips and her study of augmentation of fluoxetine (Prozac) with pimozide.

So it really isn’t known which augmentation approaches are best. However, a number may be worth trying.

The table below shows the augmenting medications Dr. Phillips most often used for BDD, typical dosing ranges, and average doses.

It is best to augment the SRI only after you have tried it for at least 12 weeks and at a high enough dose. You should do this because the SRI may work well enough by itself. This approach can keep the medication regimen simple.

Sometimes, however, it makes sense to augment the SRI sooner, before the SRI alone has been adequately tried. This may be reasonable, for example, for someone with very severe BDD. Or the augmenting medicine may be more helpful than an SRI alone for certain symptoms (e.g., agitation) or a co-occurring disorder other than BDD.

Table: Augmentation Medications for Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

Potential SRI AUGMENTATION MEDICATIONS FOR BDD

Table: Phillips, Katharine A. (2009-01-12). Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder (Kindle Locations 4227-4233). Oxford University Press. Kindle Edition.

Buspirone Buspirone (Buspar)

An antianxiety medication with effects on serotonin, is sometimes used as an augmenting agent for depression and OCD. Unlike other antianxiety medications, buspirone is generally not sedating and has no potential for causing physical dependence or addiction. In clinical practice, adding buspirone to an SRI has been effective for about one-third of patients. The amount of improvement is fairly large.

People with delusional BDD appear as likely to improve with buspirone as those with nondelusional BDD. Buspirone augmentation is appealing because this medicine typically has so few side effects. It may also improve coexisting anxiety and possibly depressive symptoms as well. you can also treat with buspirone alone for those who prefer not to take an SRI. In studies patients experienced some improvement in BDD symptoms, although none had the robust response that can occur with an SRI.

Levetiracetam (Kepra)

Levetiracetam (Keppra) is a medication that’s marketed for the treatment of seizures. In a 12-week open-label study of 17 people taking Keppra, 53% substantially improved. Of the five patients who had levetiracetam added to an SRI that they were already taking, two got better. Of the 12 patients who took levetiracetam without an SRI, 7 got better.

While the effectiveness of this medication for BDD needs further research, these preliminary findings are encouraging and suggest that levetiracetam may be worth trying in addition to an SRI (or without an SRI; see further discussion below).

Clomipramine (Anafranil)

It is possible to combine the SRI clomipramine (Anafranil) with one of the selective SRIs (SSRIs: fluvoxamine [Luvox], fluoxetine [Prozac], paroxetine [Paxil], citalopram (Celexa), escitalopram (Lexapro), or sertraline [Zoloft]) if improvement isn’t sufficient with an adequate trial of an SSRI alone.

Some patients do better with an SSRI/clomipramine combination than with either medication alone. However, the dosing must be done very carefully. The SSRIs can greatly increase clomipramine blood levels, which can be highly toxic at very high levels. Therefore, a lower dose of clomipramine should generally be used when it’s combined with an SSRI than when clomipramine is used without an SSRI.

If a patient is already on an SSRI, it is best to begin by adding only 25 mg a day of clomipramine and then gradually raising the dose, depending on the response and clomipramine blood level. Clomipramine levels should always be checked when this medication is combined with an SSRI to ensure that the dose isn’t too high. Also, patients should be monitored for a rare syndrome called serotonin syndrome. Studies have shown that up to 44% of patients substantially improved when clomipramine was added to an SSRI or vice versa.

This response rate was somewhat higher than for other augmentation strategies, although the magnitude of the response wasn’t quite as large as for some other strategies. Nonetheless, because clomipramine is an excellent antidepressant, it may be an appealing augmentation choice for people who are severely depressed. Although it is generally recommended that you try an augmenting agent for 6 to 8 weeks, it is worth it to try clomipramine for 12 weeks before deciding whether it’s working well enough.

It is not a good idea to combine clomipramine with an SSRI without first attempting to optimize a trial with just one of them.

Other Antidepressants

Antidepressants other than clomipramine can be added to an SSRI. These medications include venlafaxine (Effexor) and bupropion (Wellbutrin). Some patients do well with this approach. Some patients with severe depression who hadn’t responded to lots of medications did particularly well on 400 mg per day of bupropion (Wellbutrin) plus 60 to 100 mg per day of citalopram (Celexa). It’s possible that adding bupropion (Wellbutrin), which doesn’t directly affect serotonin, is more effective for people whose depression doesn’t seem to be largely due to BDD, but this is speculative at this point.

Care should be taken when combining venlafaxine with an SSRI because of the risk of serotonin syndrome (although the risk is low, and I’ve never seen it occur with this combination of medications).

Neuroleptics

The neuroleptics (antipsychotics) are a class of medicines often used to treat psychotic symptoms; they are also effective for a broad range of other symptoms (e.g., agitation and anxiety). (Because some of the newer ones are effective for so many different kinds of symptoms, they are now officially classified “psychotropic agents”—meaning they have effects on psychiatric symptoms). These medications are potentially promising SRI augmenters for BDD.

First, they are effective SRI augmenters in OCD and depression. Second, many people with BDD have prominent delusions of reference and delusional conviction about the perceived appearance defect; neuroleptics are the best treatment for delusional thinking in other disorders. There are two types of neuroleptics: “typical” (or “first generation”) and “atypical” (or “second generation”). Although neither type has been well studied in BDD, the atypicals appear more promising. Some patients have responded well when we added atypical neuroleptics such as ziprasidone (Geodon), olanzapine  (Zyprexa), or risperidone (Risperdal) to an SRI. Ziprasidone (Geodon) seems especially promising. These medications can diminish severe distress and agitation resulting from BDD.

For patients with these kinds of severe symptoms I may combine an atypical neuroleptic with an SRI from the beginning of treatment. Using an atypical neuroleptic early in treatment can provide quicker relief than the SRI alone—producing a calming effect (but not usually a sedating effect if the dosing is done correctly). This can help the person function better, and in some cases prevent hospitalization. However, only one study has adequately studied a neuroleptic as an SRI augmenter. This study tested pimozide (Orap), a typical neuroleptic that is effective for Tourette’s disorder (characterized by repetitive, uncontrollable verbal utterances or physical movements known as tics, which are similar to the compulsive behaviors of OCD). Pimozide is an effective SRI augmenter in OCD, and it has long had the reputation (which was based more on word of mouth than scientific studies) of being uniquely effective for delusional BDD and certain other types of delusional disorder.

Methylphenidate

Some patients (10%–20% in my experience) improve significantly when methylphenidate (Ritalin) or another stimulant is added to an SRI. It is best to use this approach when patients are severely depressed and fatigued, because the stimulant can improve depressed mood and energy as well as BDD. One concern, however, is that stimulants are potentially habit forming and are best not used in people at risk for substance abuse or dependence. Because stimulants can potentially worsen tics, there’s a theoretical concern that they might worsen skin picking (which has some features in common with tics), but this is a rare problem.

Lithium

Lithium is a natural substance that’s best known as a treatment for bipolar disorder (manic depressive illness). However, it’s also effective for a broad range of other disorders and symptoms (e.g., mood swings, depression, aggressive behavior, suicidal thinking). About 20% of BDD patients substantially improve when lithium is added to an SRI.

Benzodiazepines

Benzodiazepines (e.g., clonazepam [Klonopin], lorazepam [Ativan]) are used primarily to treat anxiety and insomnia. Strictly speaking, they are not considered augmenting agents, because they can be added to an SRI at any point during treatment—whenever they’re needed.

Benzodiazepines can be very helpful for severe distress, anxiety, or agitation if an SRI doesn’t adequately diminish these symptoms or before an SRI has had a chance to work. Benzodiazepines can also greatly improve poor sleep. They can be used temporarily or over the longer term. Temporary use of benzodiazepines during the first few weeks of treatment (while waiting for an SRI to work) can be especially valuable for people who are severely anxious, agitated, unable to sleep, or suicidal.

Benzodiazepines are potentially habit forming, but in my experience, few people with BDD abuse them.

Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy

If medication doesn’t work well enough, you should strongly consider adding CBT to the medication. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) can also be used along with medication from the start of treatment. Most of the next chapter is devoted to CBT.


Resources:

Phillips, Katharine A. (2009-01-12). Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder Oxford University Press.

Filed Under: Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) Tagged With: Augmentation, Augmenting, BDD, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Selective Seratonin Reuptake Inhibitor, SSRI, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), Understanding BDD

Assessing The Cost of Appearance Concerns and Body Dysmorphic Disorder

October 9, 2012 By Stephen

This is my first exercise from Feeling Good about the Way You Look: A Program for Overcoming Body Image Problems. Kindle location 1109 at 24%.

What is My Poor Body Image Costing Me?

Having struggled with poor body image for quite some time I have adjusted life to accommodate my problems. I was no longer aware of the huge toll my problems have taken on my life. Here is my list of disadvantages of being obsessed with my appearance. I will use these to help motivate me to make change.

  1. Dissatisfaction
  2. Shame/embarrassment
  3. Guilt
  4. Anxiety
  5. Concern that my children will become preoccupied with appearance
  6. Loneliness/isolation
  7. Jealousy of better looking people
  8. Self hate
  9. Disgust
  10. Anger
  11. Fear of rejection of abandonment
  12. Fear of being ridiculed
  13. Avoidance of intimate relationships
  14. Stress on relationships due to avoidance behaviors or comparing
  15. Making excuses or lying about the problem
  16. Not being fully present at work because of appearance concerns
  17. Being late because of rituals
  18. Avoidance of body focused activities (swimming, gym, sun)
  19. Refusing overnight trips
  20. Avoidance of social activities
  21. Feeling horrible in certain clothes
  22. Avoidance of getting your picture taken
  23. Avoidance of mirrors
  24. Avoidance of being seen from certain angles
  25. Avoidance of certain tasks (for example, sitting near a window or under bright lights) 
  26. Time for rituals (mirror checking, comparing, shopping appearance fixing)
  27. Accidents due to mirror checking
  28. Alcohol or drugs to cope with preoccupation
  29. Cost of beauty products suck as skin creams and soaps

Questions to Ask Yourself if You are Losing Motivation

  • Do I want to change? Yes
  • Do I want to stop being so obsessed with my looks? Yes
  • Do I want to stop comparing? Yes
  • Am I tired of being scared by mirrors? Yes

Filed Under: Feeling Good About The Way You Look, Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder Tagged With: Appearance Concerns, CBT, Feeling Good About the Way You Look, Therapy, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

Starting an SSRI (Lexapro) for My Body Dysmorphic Disorder

October 5, 2012 By Stephen

I am reading a wonderful book, if not the only real book on the successful treatment and management of BDD.

It is called Understanding Body Dysmorphic Disorder by Katharine A. Phillips.

It has been helpful. It has given me both clarity and confusion. Sometimes as a BDD sufferer the hardest thing to do is to differentiate what is real from what is a delusion.

This is where it is good to have a third party.

Treating BDD with an SSRI

medium_3501780857

What the book definitely recommends is beginning treatment of your BDD with an SSRI.

There are many options and the studies she presents are from her own practice and are limited.

But she makes a convincing case for the use of antidepressants and reports significant benefits, in the realm of 85% response rate with the addition of an SSRI.

With that I decided it was time to give it a try.

Choosing the Right SSRI

Honestly, looking at her data they all seemed appropriate, most of her studies were based on a rather small sample size. But the choice seemed to come down to two.

  1. Lexapro
  2. Celexa

These are both generic and good inexpensive options.

With both medications, the point is to start low and then increase the dose based on the response. Usually, this can be done at two-week intervals and should be continued for 12 weeks regardless of the perceived benefit. As long as there are no really bad side effects. I will talk later about augmenting these SSRI’s or changing to a different SSRI. But for now I just want to talk about my experience.

Beginning Lexapro 10 mg daily for the treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder

So I started treatment of my BDD with Lexapro 10 mg taken first thing in the morning.

I started exactly 7 days ago.

I wish I could say I felt like a million bucks, but I really haven’t noticed much difference. The thing that makes the difference is sleep. Which to be honest during my recent “attack” has been hard to come by.

So, to overcome this I also started taking 10mg of Ambien (Zolpidem) at night. Last night was the first night I took the Ambien and I feel so much better. Simply relaxing my mind and finally getting some sleep did more for my mood than anything.

I don’t particularly want to take sleep medications, but if you are up at night worrying about your appearance I would highly recommend the addition of either a cheap generic sleep aid such as Ambien (Zolpidem) or if your anxiety is out of control maybe a benzodiazepine such as Diazepam at a dose of 5mg.

The anxiety is the hardest part for me to overcome. I am fine at home and while I sit here and write, but outside in the daylight when I am around people it is hard.

I haven’t talked much about what has made things so bad  recently, but it involves a recent accident I had, that caused a rather significant scar on my left cheek. This coupled with my underlying disorder has sent me over the edge. I will talk a bit more about this in the future.

If you have any questions feel free to drop a line in the comments section.

Filed Under: Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) Tagged With: Anxiety, BDD, Body, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Deprression, Medications, SSRI, Treatment of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

  • « Previous Page
  • 1
  • 2