Today begins a new day, I have said it 1,000 times.
Today I feel great, tomorrow better, the following day like shit again. Kind of an endless cycle. It has been well over three years and not a day goes by where I don’t ponder my existence living with a scarred face.
Get on with it for God’s sake I tell myself. Life hasn’t changed a bit, the only thing that has changed was my perception of me in it.
Its quality somehow diminished by this eternal, atrophic flaw.
Oh how it defines me.
This weekend in church I felt something I haven’t in a while, close to God. It was nice, not sitting there desperate for some type of answer or solution to my menial little problem. Give onto others, let my love and gifts shine onto others, and then the world, and I, will be a better person in it.
Be the vehicle for God’s love, instead of waiting for all the answers.
It seemed so clear and perfect for a bit, then came tomorrow.
Today, was a good day, there are big developments on the horizon and I have made some new connections. Connections, despite the way my face feels and the way I hate existing in it.
Keep moving on, smile, bring it, share gratitude and grace… I can get through this. One day at a time.
Reading your blog is like reading my own diary. Thank you for sharing. It makes me feel less alone.
I hope you’re having a good day!!
Hi Danni, it is good to know that we are all in this together! Hang in there, thanks so much for your comment, and I hope you are having a wonderful day as well!
– Stephen