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Overcoming Body Dysmorphic Disorder - My Story of Living With BDD

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~ Henry David Thoreau

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This is the Story of My Life Living With Body Dysmorphic Disorder

Worthy Now

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First gratitude:

  1. I am grateful for this quiet early morning, the kids are still asleep and there is silence, pure motionless silence and that is blissful.
  2. I am grateful for children: Their smiles and their laughter, their joy and when they are little at least, their innate ability to love. It is a breath of fresh air, it is a reminder of what makes us human.
  3. I am grateful for me, for my life and this very moment.
  4. I am grateful for healing, in all its forms, whether this is physical or emotional. It can happen and that gives me hope.
  5. I am grateful for my sister, who has had to overcome her own body issues, she is a constant source of love and inspiration.

Worthy Now

When we can let go of what other people think and own our story, we gain access to our worthiness – the feeling that we are enough just as we are and that we are worthy of love and belonging.
When we spend a lifetime trying to distance ourselves from the parts of our lives that don’t fit with who we think we’ere supposed to be, we stand outside of our story and hustle for our worthiness by constantly performing, perfecting, trying to please and proving.
Our sense of worthiness – that critically important piece that gives us access to love and belonging lives inside of our story.
The greatest challenge for most of us with BDD is believing that we are worthy now, right this very minute.

Worthiness doesn’t have a prerequisite yet I know I have created a long list of them:

  1. I will be worthy when this scar isn’t so prominent on my face.
  2. I will be worthy when I have perfect skin.
  3. I will be worthy when my body is in better shape.
  4. I will be worthy when I make money online selling my art.
  5. I will be worthy when I can never make a mistake.
  6. I will be worthy when my nose heals and it isn’t so red and disfigured looking.
  7. I will be worthy when no one calls me out or puts me down, or challenges my way of thinking.
  8. I will be worthy at a party when I am the center of attention and everyone wants to talk to me.
Here is the secret to overcoming BDD:

Worthy Now, Not if, Not when.

We are all worthy of love and belonging right now, right this minute. As is.

Gratitude Journal – Day 1

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I have decided to start a gratitude journal, and to make sure I do this I figured I would do it here on this site.

They recommend 5 gratitudes, but today I have a few more.

I just had to have a cancerous lesion removed from my nose. So I have been sulking. After last years, facial laceration I could hardly cope. Now having this deep dime like scar on my nose has been devastating.

But I am reading a short “blink” on a service I love called “blinkist”.

This blink is about positivity. And one of the first recommendations was a gratitude journal, so here goes, this is day 1.

What I am grateful for:

  1. I am grateful for my children and my wife, their health, their vitality their spirit of love and generosity.
  2. I am grateful for long runs in the woods, that are alone and quite and full of fresh air and good smelling tress.
  3. I am grateful that we have found a renter for our house for our next years adventure.
  4. I am grateful for readers who read my work, and share it with others.
  5. I am grateful to have the functions I do have. Like the ability to walk and talk. I am not in a wheelchair. Yes I have some facial scars but not everyone has deserted me.
  6. I am grateful for my sister and my mom and my dad, who love me so much.
  7. I am grateful for hot coffee in the mornings.
  8. I am grateful for sexy kisses from my wife in the morning who is still with me despite my facial flaws.
  9. I am grateful to have financial success and a great job.
  10. I am grateful to be able to wake up and have the possibility to make the world a better place.
  11. I am grateful to be on my to finishing a book that will hopefully help support us throughout next year.