I won’t lie, I had wonderful sex with my wife last night.  This was so needed, and I am telling you this because the Lexapro ruined my ability to achieve an orgasm.

This was upsetting, yes I know I was taking it to feel better, but the Lexapro was not making me feel better. I increased my dose up to 20mg (as was recommended) but I felt worse.

I developed diarrhea, and bad GI side effects. I started to have bad headaches and felt nauseous.

I didn’t even realize that this was all from the medicine until I weaned myself off and started to feel better.

The SSRI Myth?

I know I did not follow protocol for the treatment of BDD with my SSRI.  Maybe because I am a skeptic to begin with.  I prescribe a lot of these medications and was happy I could try them. I was glad they were available to me as an option.

I did believe that they could help, until they didn’t.

I not only had good sex, but I also slept great the last two nights this was such a break from the constant insomnia. And I was happy to be off the Ambien. I am hoping to stay this way.

The Poem That Changed My Life

I am not sure why I feel better. It may go back to a poem I read and posted last week. A poem that reminds us that life is not a “dress rehearsal.” This was powerful.

Maybe posting the picture of my scar helped. Maybe taking the time to read about others with facial scars. Or maybe it was somewhere on my long run through the woods that it just didn’t seem as important.

What people cared about me, or how I felt about myself, just didn’t seem as important.

Maybe it was good to go out for drinks with my sister! Despite drinking too much as treatment of depression, getting out and testing my theories with exposure always helps.

Life After Lexapro

I am taking 6000 IU of vitamin D3 and Nordic Naturals Ultimate Omega.  There is research that shows higher levels of DHA (that are part of an Omega supplement) can work as well as conventional prescription antidepressants.

Or possibly so could Botulism Toxin!

I am feeling well on the above combo, sleeping better and I have more energy. There is something to be said about natural cures for BDD. Most definitely a future post.